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Monday
Aug042014

HOBBLER No. 2 [On the Gift of One’s Body]

 I am reminded these days of how much I take for granted.

I am reminded, when I wake in the morning, to stop and savor that first full, deep, expansive breath, perhaps accompanied by a slight coolness if drawn quickly enough. To enjoy the stretch of one’s chest, bowing out as the lungs coax the ribs’ widening. Or the ability to interact freely with one’s environment—stooping to examine the low, craning to view the obscured, straining to grasp the out-of-reach. These simple joys may differ from person to person, and are so numerous that it is difficult to maintain awareness amidst the blur of the day; at best, when my senses are most attuned, I am sure I recall only a fraction of them. 

Recently, the summation of some two months of radiating nerve pain (properly: radiculopathy) arrived in a diagnosis of a herniated disc in my lower back. After some weeks of physical therapy, I’ve finally started to return to normalcy.

When we experience a bad cut, deep bruise, or any of the wounds that we can actually watch as they heal—the cut coagulating and sealing itself, the bruise darkening, yellowing, shrinking—its easy to become used to the rapidity and visibility of those processes. But in those injuries that manifest themselves internally, those that slowly creep upon a person until some (or several) aspect(s) of their lifestyle must be discarded or rearranged, patience and resolve become far less attainable. Such has been the case for me, but despite the despair that occasionally worms into my consciousness, these months of slight suffering have invited me to consider, for the first real time in my life, how extraordinary God’s construction of our flesh really is. 

Consider the staggering number of provisions with which our Lord outfitted our bodies for healing. The fact that our physical existences can be so compromised and eventually return to a state of equilibrium is astounding, especially considering how highly we regard medical professionals today. Now, in no way do I mean to discount or critique modern medicine. Instead, I seek only to marvel anew at our regenerative capability, which, in all its intricacy, is but a grain of sand in comparison to the other infinite traits of our Creator.

Certainly, there are those maladies from which such recovery is not possible. Romans 6:23 reminds us that “the wages of sin is death,” and with sin an inescapable reality while on this Earth, we all meet an end eventually. We are, being time-bound for the present, destined to wither away in some respect until a timeless kingdom becomes our eternal inheritance. While we Christians look forward to that ultimate gift of our spiritual bodies, I think it’s still important to value the less grand but still significant gift of our mortal selves. There are those whose human ‘walk’ is not a walk at all, but a limp, a crawl, or even a life of immobility. Rejoice in knowing that one day, God’s children will be freed from those hindrances, and be thankful for the moments you live without them. Perhaps the silver lining of what I’ve experienced is that each time I enjoy a run through a park, an afternoon on a tennis court, or a swim in a lake, I will enjoy it in a way that might have remained unavailable to me, had I not sustained this injury. I hope that these words, in part, make that kind of joy available (or nearer to available) for you.

 

B. L. Homuth
Lying on my couch, in the dawn of a muggy morning
August 4, 2014

Image:
"Sad Inheritance"
Oil on Canvas - 1900
Joaquin Sorolla 

Sunday
Aug032014

Philosophical Infants

  

We live in a time of innocence, philosophically speaking. We are not innocent because we live before discovery, but rather we are innocent because we live after the discovery that everything is meaningless. However, we live sufficiently after this discovery to allow its ramifications to wear off. We are thus infants in a philosophical world that has lost all reason to raise us.
 
As best as I can tell it happened something like what befell the generations on the island of St. Anne. The ship full of immigrants bound for somewhere most rudely crashed upon her virgin coast. The parentage of the group quickly took to making an effort at survival while the children played with crabs on the beach. Times were harsh, what with storms, disease, and starvation. Little time was taken for the leisurely intellectual life. Essential knowledge was gained on tidal patterns, edible sea urchins (by trial and error), and the relative buoyancy of the four indigenous tree species found on the isle. Really I don't think the deficiency was purposeful and I'm not here to point the proverbial finger, but it was during these dramatic years of distracting ocean-side living that the neglect took place. This "Thingy Magnus" was the lack of that generation passing down the knowledge that the world is round! As generation succeeded generation the homeland became a distant tale of lore, and when the great teacher Jacamo Sr. proposed the world's end lay just beyond the horizon, only the crazy of crazies rafted any great distance from the island for fear of encountering the beasts that breathed in and out the water. Yes, eventually a rather pricy yacht (with an extraordinarily nice sound system) appeared on that very horizon and brought news of civilization. Needless to say, at this juncture, the inhabitants of St. Anne were forced to reconsider their presuppositions.
 
Anyway, the story of St. Anne seems to fit Bill quite nicely for the current predicament. For, we live in the Ironic Era where anchors on networks like Monocle 24 (which I enjoy rather largely) can make comments of "having great fun with the idea of creation being an issue in the US" without having fun at their own dirth of meaning in the use of words. The great philosophical pursuits of the 19th and 20th centuries to prove meaninglessness in the end have gone into the history tombs. No longer are people being warned against suicide(1) by the teachers who know the ramifications of what they are about to propose. The great battle of epistemology and metaphysics raged for years and people paid dearly with blood and sweat. However, a victor was declared in the halls of academia and the swords (metaphorical though without definition) were put away. Meaninglessness had won and was securely ensconced in its tower. Now that that little scuffle was taken care of everyone got back to making up life. Generations have continued with a very listless passing of this philosophical information (meaninglessness is a terrible motivator) as pretend life in entertainment and environment has created sufficient hills on which to die. The Ironic Era gives adequate security in the assumption that someone probably has secured through rigorous mental deductions these presuppositions upon which I base my life.  I can move on to worrying about local produce, urbanization trends, and water sport!
 
I can't say I have been biting my nails, in fact I just clipped them, but I get this feeling when walking down the halls, walks, and isles of my era that I may look up one day to see that yacht on the horizon or will it be a warship?
 
Phillip Tippin
Mostly on the farm
Sedgwick, KS
 
Painting:
Shipwreck on a Rocky Coast
Wijnand Nuyen
Oil on Canvas, 1837
 
(1) Schaeffer, Francis A. The God who is there / Francis A. Schaeffer. -30th anniversary ed. Chicago: Inter-Varsity Press. 1968. pg. 38.
Wednesday
Jul302014

The Brief Time Paradigm

My wife and I were having a discussion just the other night as to the awkward situations that may arise when living to an excess of nine hundred years, as noted in Genesis. Just consider beginnging childbirth after, say, the centennial mark and continuing for the next six hundred years. What would dating entail? When would one reach their prime? When would aging become apparent or the mind begin to wane? What could you remember about fifty when you were seven hundred and forty two? How good could one become at pingpong? The thought of still having kids alongside your great-great-great-great-grandaughter and the confusion of relational relativity of a first cousin sixteen times removed began to boggle the mind, as it were. We came to, I think, the only plausible view. The situations most likely felt extremely normal. In this respect, I suggest our root problem is in viewing life within. and the inability to throw off, our certain  "brief time" paradigm.
 
The vision flashed upon my mind during this conversation leading to a new appreciation of “paradigm." Not an approbation of the current paradigm, but the natural recognition of paradigm as a concept, of pattern that is typical and strangely defined. For, our length of days is just that. The endless line of eighty year blips in the current "brief time paradigm" is not a natural phenomenon at all but rather one decreed (Gen. 6). Not only so, but life's specific brevity was determined for good reason. One must only stop to ponder the wickedness of the heart growing and manifesting itself in greater ways for hundreds of years. However, paradigms by decree may leave other paradigms open to the heart, though not to the will. This is why I can so easily conceptualize throwing off this natural life arc mentally, but remain completely fixed physically. This is not an animal trait; it is an image trait, I suspect.
 
May I bring it down to a smaller scale? As a ball in the hand helps one contemplate the globe, maybe a smaller dimensional paradigm will help one better recognize his own. 
 
The scene is played out over and again. The father makes all manner of gesticulations to induce the toddler to give the faintest hint of pleasantries for one moment to tap the screen and capture blissful childhood. A Great batch of relatives gather on the porch in merriment with arms around shoulders and children upon knees to gaze into the flashbulb. The wedding party, in sparkling and immaculate regalia, look in admiration at the loving couple lost in each others' eyes. Click, click and the paradigm ends. The toddler realizes the sippy cup in the stroller and begins a wailing cry. Cousin Frank shoves Andrew off the porch precipitating a bloody nose while an argument breaks out over where to eat dinner. The best man flirts drunkenly with the sister of the bride, the bride and groom bicker in the car as their bills have simply become joint deductions on the tax return. The people are in the photo and we are outside the ruse. In brilliant luster, the smiles can be held for a moment. It is a fleeting image but as real a moment as this life of ours. The slogans of the fitness brochure, the resort amenity list, or the woman’s internet profile are doing their very best to make you smile for the picture of life. The smile is hard to hold. The sin is hard to hold. We take the photo, we can even edit a video, but God must cut the paradigm short at six score years. 
 
This ability to recognize the paradigm and place one’s self outside its reach, if only in the mind, should not surprise as eternity resides in the heart. However, as with many of the most obvious aspects of the heart, there is an Unwillingness to recognize an unnatural brevity because of the requirement to recognize the one who could decree such a paradigm. This leads to problematically accepting paradigm as not just typical but natural.
 
Please don’t misunderstand what I am trying to say. People through any means possible will pursue the elongation of life, but they are pursuing the length of what they see as “natural” physical life and not a change in decree. However, the attempts have been extremely unsuccessful to do anything more than get the mean of the population slightly closer to the set limit. For this reason, the focus switches to trying to fit all of life (and the afterlife) into the “natural” 80+ years. As has been noted by J.P., retirement is the real heaven to the world. Nine hundred years of physical, sexual, emotional, and aesthetic experience are being systematically condensed in the modern world to match the heart that looks on at the photograph of our lives. Rather than 900 years seeming strange to experience childhood, marriage, parenting, work, and beauty, the years are being met head on with the brief time paradigm.
 
Oh, but how the heart runs wild when immortality is brought to light and the brevity recognized as paradigm decreed (by necessity) and not normal by creation (in light of re-creation). This is just another example of reality in which I stand by discovery, not iteration.
 
Phillip Tippin
Looking out on the Amur Maples
Newton, KS

 
Painting:
Portrait of an Old Man in a Scarlet
Edward Atkinson Homel
Oil on Canvas, 1881
Tuesday
Jul292014

Two Rough-Hewn Poems

 

PURPLE HEART

 At the Fourth of July parade
he wouldn’t stand for the flag.
Slumped in a fold-up chair,
cowboy hat low over thick eyebrows,
tapping his metal-toed boot
against a crack in the pavement.
I’m sure he stuck out—a lost tooth in a smile,
a nubbed finger in a wave, the absence
of what you’ve been conditioned to see.
When I think of Stuart, he’s at his farm;
he pats the back of his strongest mare,
she neighs, and trots away,
splitting clods of manure and dirt.
He picks up a stiff leg,
thumbs the round scar on his thigh
through dusty jeans,
and turns to warm his face on the morning.

 

I SEE MY OWN MRI
and the vertebrae gleam silver,
like collected nodes of moonlight,
keys of a ghostly piano
waiting to be played,
as though Beethoven’s sonata were a look
inside the self, the ostinato of the thrumming heart,
the anatomy turned inside-out. There—
the same bones that folded
to my last recital bench, cushioned
by dimples and rivulets
in front of the baby grand,
an instrument with its own viscera:
the lid prop like glossed black skin
over a cast iron frame, a sinewy soundboard,
hammer and string guts.
I always wanted to look inside while I played,
see the smooth padded action,
watch the steely vibrations.
It’s the only piece I know anymore,
traces evident in this inner picture.
These are the melodies of the protoplasm,
chiseled from the deep strata of composition,
excavated, assembled in score, alive.
When I sit at the keys now, and hunch,
and bend, and sway, I wonder
if it’s that old dialogue between the staff and the spine,
the fossils of music never extinct. 

 

B. L. Homuth
Written in the quiet confines of my apartment
July 29, 2014 

Image:
"An Old Man's Head"
Oil on Canvas - 19th Century
George Elgar Hicks

Monday
Jul282014

Ambler, No. 19 [On Church Music*]

And therefore restlesse inquietude for the diuturnity of our memories unto present considerations, seems a vanity almost out of date, and superanuated peece of folly. -- Sir T. Browne

I have about as much musical talent as an Eskimo has at surfing. Thus, the following analysis of modern church music must be taken with a grain of salt—or even disregard entirely. Nevertheless, though I have very little musical talent, I do possess an awareness of good writing, an ability to judge whether meaning and truth are being conveyed through the medium of words. And that is necessarily what music should be set to accomplish—most notably church music. Thus, when a modern Christian songwriter1 pens such lunacy in his repetition of the phrase “God’s big dance floor,” the man listening to the song should not melt with feeling because the guitar tells him to do so but should question what on earth is meant by “God’s big dance floor.” Now, I use a silly example which will really do no harm, for “God’s big dance floor” essentially means very little and is closer to the jabber of academics than a coherent suggestion on the nature of our Lord. Furthermore, I doubt, though perhaps I shouldn’t, that any church actually sings such a song, and so it should not be labeled as “church music.”

However, there is a very real and a very serious danger when that same lunacy enters the church. If, for example, people began repeating the phrase “stand up” fifteen times in a row for no apparent reason before switching to “hands up” fifteen more times (in which both actions are mimicked respectively by the crowd), the musicians have achieved little more—nay, much less—than if they had simply sung the popular children’s song “Deep and Wide” or “Father Abraham” and had that congregation follow the actions. Those songs at least had a moral to them. But too often congregations are spinning in circles because the guitar and the drums make them feel as if they should.

All this does is make the modern church appear very silly. But when congregations start singing songs which do nothing but focus the attention on themselves and their struggles2, any sense of worship is nearly completely lost, and the God who was to be praised is now functioning as a mere counselor for our pains.    

*****

The organist of a certain church where I reside is a lady of perhaps sixty or seventy. In fact, as I meandered my way in to the sanctuary, and sat near the back, I noticed that the average head donned a light grey or white. (The fine gentleman in my row had such a hoary beard that he looked as if he had just alighted from his sailing ship after many months away from home. I expected him at any moment to reach into his pocket, pull out a pipe, place it between his pursed lips, wink, turn to me, and say “Aye, Matey!”) Barring three children, forced to be there with their parents, and one young intern pastor, forced to be their by the good nature of his willing soul, no one came within fifteen years of me. The organ blared the prelude to the service as laymen prepared their hearts (and knees) for worship. We all rose, slowly, and sang the old hymn “Love Divine, All Love’s Excelling.” Love, it appears was the theme for the service. “Love Lifted Me,” “My Savior’s Love,” “O the Deep Deep Love” were others sung with a mere organ and piano. The beautiful thing about an organ is that it is so loud one can hardly hear themselves singing, and this, in my case, is a plus.

Nevertheless, as we sang together, the deep voice of the old man behind me, whose named I learned is Jim, bellowed like a beluga whale seeking a mate. The congregation was old. The songs were old. There were no drums or bass or electric guitar—there was no guitar at all. But true, genuine worship was had because the words of the hymns had deep meaning and concrete images.

As we sang, “My Savior’s Love,” we arrived at the third verse. Jim, having left and his absence being noticed, now returned with renewed vigor, bellowing louder than ever the beautiful words: 

Could we with ink the ocean fill,
And were the skies of parchment made,
Were every stalk on earth a quill,
And every man a scribe by trade,
To write the love of God above,
Would drain the ocean dry.
Nor could the scroll contain the whole,
Though stretched from sky to sky.

Though I enjoy—and was—cracking open the dusty and neglected hymnals when the opportunity affords itself, I noticed the background of the projector with the words was a picture of an ocean. I imagined to myself this was unlike other services where the lyrics of the song are so open to interpretation that one person can be thinking about his rocky marriage while another is thinking about the Rocky Road he will consume after the service. This group of aging worshippers, however, all had for at least a few moments, the exact same image imprinted on their minds. It is very difficult, if not impossible, for a worshipper to get sidetracked when singing a song with such clear images.

*****

It is not that contemporary Christian music simply lacks images and is bad writing. It is that it is not simple. One might hold a note for twenty seconds without any warning, or he might change pace with insane fierceness—like the unfortunate hare who woke up after his nap and had to catch up to the tortoise. The hymn may be overly simplistic, or they may all sound exactly the same to some degree. But the wonder of creativity is not discovered in the randomness. Creativity is had in the fact that hymns are wonderfully uniform, making the entire service appear uniformed. Furthermore, the hymn may be too easy to sing, but at least it can be sung. Some contemporary songs are so “creative” that they create situations in which the congregation is a mere crowd and the compilation a concert.

*****

We arose and sang one last song, “Jesus, We Just Want to Thank You.” After we sat our collective old bones in our seats, a young intern gave announcements. Halfway through the announcements, out of a side door appeared an old man in a blue, buttoned-up shirt and khakis. He proceeded to hold the door open for twenty-two other old men who happened to be dressed in the same get-up. The men proceeded to form to half-circle rows on the stage as the young intern continued giving announcements.

Finishing the announcements, the intern sat himself down, and an older man with a beard in the back of the two rows pulled out a harmonica. After finding the correct pitch, the old man who initially opened the door, conducted the other twenty-two in an acappella version of “This Little Light of Mine.” The same process was repeated as the group sang another song, one unfamiliar to me but just as refreshing for the soul. Indeed, the men were collectively known as the Little Apple Barbershop Chorus. Their music was not catchy. It did not have gadgets and glory. It had nothing with which to move the emotions. But it had character. It had the peculiar ability to take the mere raw materials of man, the voice, and produce a beautiful sound. Modern Christian music would go along way if we did away with the gadgets and glory. It would even benefit more from a mere reading of the hymnals than a smoke filled concert, gabbing and crabbing about “my problems.”

_________________

*In the tradition of C.S. Lewis’ fabulous essay, “On Church Music.”

1Chris Tomlin, “God’s Big Dance Floor.” A friend of mine aptly describes the songwriter’s music as “Jesus is my boyfriend music.”

2A current song repeats the phrase “He makes all things work together for my good” about 43 times (emphasis mine).

Sam Snow
Written at the Ole Midshipman,
After a morning of worship,
July 27, 2014 

Painting: A Lady at a Piano
By French School
Oil on Canvas, 1850-1870